Tuesday, December 29, 2009

More than...

The more I think about you, the more I feel you
The more I feel you, the more I pray for you
The more you need me to wait, the more I will wait for you
Heart focused on what tomorrow holds
Not concerned with enhancing the flesh but more my soul
Immortality is the goal
Mortality is the way, the truth and the life
Morality is a lifestyle when I am blessed with my wife
The need to be loved fulfilled with a vow and a kiss
Honeymoon bliss
Making sure we do everything in our power to keep the 'honey' in the moon
Keeping each other in check so the lusts of the flesh will not consume
Understanding is the path
You do the math
The more we relate the more we can create
The more we hope the more we can cope
More than conquerors
More than lovers
More than friends
More than companions
Together we are just simply more than whatever...


Tuesday, December 1, 2009


In the midst of all the ugliness in our lives and in this world we found something beautiful together.
Something so beautiful words can't ever begin to describe it in totality.
For that, I can only say thank you for giving me a chance.
In my eyes you can never be replaced.
I don't wanna replace you.
Anyone else I would honestly be settling for.
I am not sad overall.
I just miss you.
I miss loving you freely with reciprocity.
I truly wanna see you happy.
The selfish part of me wants you to wait for me, but I dropped the ball.
I know for a fact God opened the heavens and personally placed you right before me.
I will forever praise His name for that.
The fact is the real man in me now recognizes I blew my chance at having you.
I mishandled my life in such a way that I ultimately ended up mishandling you.
I will never make that mistake again for two reasons.
One, If you ever took me back, I would not lose you twice.
Two, I don't want to open up to anyone else like that again.
I love you to pieces.
I love you beyond love itself.
I pray for you always.
I pray God moves on your behalf swiftly.
I pray He heals your heart.
I pray He heals mine along the way.
I am utterly devoted to you.
If I can't have you, I will write and recite poems to the memories I have of you.
For those memories are more perfect to me than any other woman could ever measure up to.
I don't wanna give my heart to somebody else because i promised my heart to you.
If you ever choose to receive my love again, it's already yours to redeem.
I'm just happy I could commit my heart to you with all the love I have to give.
I am learning I can still be happy and be alone.
Because if I chose somebody else, they would be ultimately alone as my heart is wherever you are.
If you choose to move on completely the only thing I could do is smile after i weep.
Because all I wanna see is your happiness.
Because my love for you refuses to dissipate.
So I wouldn't hate.
I would congratulate.
And continue to write and recite poems to perfect memories of the purest love I have ever known in my life.
I love everything about you.
Even down to the way you walk.
And your expressions.
If you ever need me,
If you ever wanna come find me,
I'll only be just a poem away...


You are my oxygen
I can't seem to breathe without you
The air I breathe seems incomplete without you in my vicinity
Every second without you seems like hopeless infinity
Suffocation seems imminent
I ask myself how long can my heart survive
Because it feels like I'm brain-dead
And without you I just can't seem to breathe
Like I said
You are my oxygen
I've been trying to locate my pulse
But I truly don;t believe it will return
Until I feel your touch
I can't even conceive to truly love another woman or another woman's love to receive
Becuase they would want the whole soul of me and I wouldn't even be able to offer them a piece of me
Please believe
Because the whole soul of me, after God, belongs to you
So I'm standing here somewhat soul-less without you
Shallowness of breath
I can feel within my lungs the constriction
Life without you is an obvious death conviction
Because like I said
You are my oxygen
So how can I even imagine breathing without you
Loving you is so much deeper than addiction
The way my heart, soul, spirit, mind and body feel for you
So much deeper than my inadequate words and their diction
The place in my heart for you no other woman can even begin to chart
It's like I can feel the raw wounds in the pit of my heart
Shredded from pain's sand-paper-like friction
Vessels, veins and tendons just hanging outside my chest ripped all the way apart
Without you I don't even wanna know what intimacy is anymore
When I lost you it's like every woman walked right out the door
And watched the tail-lights fade away in the distance
No other woman can even begin to fill the void i now feel
I just gotta be real
I miss you
My heart misses you
My heart cries for you
My body yearns for you
My heart dies for you
Along with my pride
It's like my soul has been cracked
And I'm all alone standing off to the side feeling abstract
Somewhat invisible to the rest of the world
Heart open and visible to no-one else but you girl
Hoping one day you'll help me breathe again
Because like I said
You are my oxygen...