Random Thoughts: You

If you walk down the street I would run to the corner
If you move to another country I'm officially a foreigner
Devotion is more than a notion
Dedication is more than some simple libation
For you are my religion
You are my ritual
You are my rite of passage
You are my day of reckoning
Can't you see my soul beckoning for you
I don't give a fuck what your mouth says
I see what your eyes say every time you look at me
Mouths lie
They can't help it
Especially when they are afraid
So I understand
'Cause you KNOW you see THIS man
And you know THIS man sees YOU
And we both desire something true in the midst of a den of thieves
Preying on tender hearts like yours and mine
Taking advantage when our hope is on the decline
Can you stay focused
Can you overlook the hocus-pocus
Can you see what is evident when it is not
Can you love me with all you've got
Because I can
I have
I always have
I always will
I will kill if someone disrespects your virtue
Eye for an eye if someone hurts you
Automatic protection if you make me your selection
Kevin C ain't got shit on me
You become my favorite video every time I think about you
And you are my vivid picture in the wee hours of the night
Projected on my ceiling as if there is a light
I don't need you in my presence to feel you
To touch you
To taste you
To smell you
To hear you
And that is why I fear you
You reside deep down under my skin
Do you belong there
I hope so...

SpokenHeart

Words Before Lines: Irresistible You

Intense moments, moments in life, moments in love

Refining what time is from a right now perspective

Right now, you have all of my attention

Every syllable you speak makes me weak

Stolen moments with you are what I eagerly seek

Investing the time to blow your mind in return

Staking my claim and writing my name within your walls with each passionate moment

Taking your brain to the places your heart can't find maps for, snatching your breath away

Invisibly inking your soul with the seeds of my words before our passions play

Beating confessions out of your depths with my sword of seductively erotic correction

Lust is an afterthought as pure passion has seized complete control, linking our souls

Establishing bodily communication after intense verbal preparation

Yearning for the "more" that has been so elusive is now transformed into soul to soul reality

Overjoyed I am yet under-afraid to let myself fall

Under the beautiful spell of an irresistible you

*SpokenHeart

Brain Game

I'm weak in the knees the ways you tease
Ringing in my head the things you just said
I've had my eyes on your lips
After putting my eyes your hips
Natural twists on your crown
Smelling like jasmine and vanilla
A real grown man killer
Heart-stealer
Deal-sealer
Deep-feeler
Bruised-ego healer
I'm definitely on my P's and my Q's
Check my shoes
They're standing still right in front of you
I'm looking at you
Now eye to eye
Not running
Not walking away
I'd rather stay
Indulging without my crotch bulging
Listening without agenda
Who could ignore words so tender
Unexpected grace from your beautiful space
Conversation so sweet I just have to taste more than your tasty looking lips
Do you mind if I relax
Sit down and lean back
And just simply enjoy this intimate moment
Because right now I can't even say a word
All I can do is nod my head, exhale and close my eyes

Because your brain game is ridiculous

I'm almost afraid to give you body

*SpokenHeart

Raging Romance: More Than Skin

Where do I begin
You are more than your skin
More intoxicating than a tall glass of gin
More refreshing than spring water from Mt Fuji
Your daddy's daughter
The beat of your mother's heart
The fire in my eye that will never lose it's spark
More than your disarming smile
More than your sultry curves that swerve like the Nile
Versatile
Jazzy when you wanna be
Classy lady you're always gonna be
Spiritual inner fortitude that keeps your demeanor graceful
Respect for self keeps your conversation and presentation always tasteful
I can see your open ears to the wisdom of our Beautifully Seasoned Queens
Woman of my wishful yesterdays
Woman of my dreams
The woman for my team
You've got home team advantage
Because I could see myself coming home to you on the daily
I can see you with my eyes closed
You are more than what my naked eyes lovingly behold
I see your sweet spirit
The integrity of your soul
And your pure heart speaks to me in a language only translated by my ears
Deciphered like cryptic code in our love's abode
Learning each other through osmosis every time we touch
What a rush
You touch my soul on levels there are no words for
So I must touch your heart in the places no words can help comprehend

Love's imperfectly perfect blend

More than desire

More than skin

*SpokenHeart

Random WordPlay: Just me...

Many have tried
Many have lied
Many have laid aside pride
All for a chance to get next to you

With hopes of being in your vicinity on the regular

Secular desires
Four flat tires
Going nowhere
Evil stare
'Don't touch my hair!'
'I don't know you like that!'

Lips shoot
Flossing loot
In pursuit
Unfortunately you already know it's the panties before your heart
And the usual finish to the race leaves you broken
38 HOT
Gun of bitterness still smoking
Poppin off shots at the innocent bystander who just simply says hello
What will it take to empty your clip before you point your gun at me

Let me guess

Honesty
Truth
Respect
Spirituality in totality
And not just for convenience of conversation

What about a smile and direct contact with your eyes
Not roaming your body wondering what the prize is like
Not trying to feed my appetite
That has nothing to do with food

Way to the left of rude
A sincere dude
Who gives you his government without being prompted
And you have to hear somebody else call him by the name he prefers

No secrets
No surprises
No omissions
No bullshit

Just me

Giving you the freedom to choose... Me

And not my representative


Am I on the right path to you?


SpokenHeart

Random Heart-Speak: Let me know,,,

Do you understand who I am?
Strong, positive., eloquent black man
Paying close attention to my summer years
As the sands of my hour glass have produced grays on my chin
Not settling down in my easy chair watching the seasons change
Not just admiring the painted portraits I see along the way
But painting my own
Not scared of being alone
Not waiting by the phone
Setting my own tone
While enjoying the subtle harmonies of life
Not picking any bones
Not caught up in the Love Jones
I don't play any trombones
But my sax game is on point
Can you appreciate my melody?
Scored with the pen of my sin
The blood of my redemption
And the cleansing of my soul
Washed by the storms of life
Queen Mother still has me in check
Every word she utters commands my deepest respect
And I adore how she lets me live
And how she forgives
When this knuckle-head Prince stops feeling himself
Enabling me to cash in on my wealth
By remembering to honor the first commandment with promise
Keeping me humble and honest
How much do you know now?
How much more do you wanna know?
Let me know
The sooner the better...

SpokenHeart

More than...

The more I think about you, the more I feel you
The more I feel you, the more I pray for you
The more you need me to wait, the more I will wait for you
Heart focused on what tomorrow holds
Not concerned with enhancing the flesh but more my soul
Immortality is the goal
Mortality is the way, the truth and the life
Morality is a lifestyle when I am blessed with my wife
The need to be loved fulfilled with a vow and a kiss
Honeymoon bliss
Making sure we do everything in our power to keep the 'honey' in the moon
Keeping each other in check so the lusts of the flesh will not consume
Understanding is the path
You do the math
The more we relate the more we can create
The more we hope the more we can cope
More than conquerors
More than lovers
More than friends
More than companions
Together we are just simply more than whatever...

SpokenHeart

Beautiful

In the midst of all the ugliness in our lives and in this world we found something beautiful together.
Something so beautiful words can't ever begin to describe it in totality.
For that, I can only say thank you for giving me a chance.
In my eyes you can never be replaced.
I don't wanna replace you.
Anyone else I would honestly be settling for.
I am not sad overall.
I just miss you.
I miss loving you freely with reciprocity.
I truly wanna see you happy.
The selfish part of me wants you to wait for me, but I dropped the ball.
I know for a fact God opened the heavens and personally placed you right before me.
I will forever praise His name for that.
The fact is the real man in me now recognizes I blew my chance at having you.
I mishandled my life in such a way that I ultimately ended up mishandling you.
I will never make that mistake again for two reasons.
One, If you ever took me back, I would not lose you twice.
Two, I don't want to open up to anyone else like that again.
I love you to pieces.
I love you beyond love itself.
I pray for you always.
I pray God moves on your behalf swiftly.
I pray He heals your heart.
I pray He heals mine along the way.
I am utterly devoted to you.
If I can't have you, I will write and recite poems to the memories I have of you.
For those memories are more perfect to me than any other woman could ever measure up to.
I don't wanna give my heart to somebody else because i promised my heart to you.
If you ever choose to receive my love again, it's already yours to redeem.
I'm just happy I could commit my heart to you with all the love I have to give.
I am learning I can still be happy and be alone.
Because if I chose somebody else, they would be ultimately alone as my heart is wherever you are.
If you choose to move on completely the only thing I could do is smile after i weep.
Because all I wanna see is your happiness.
Because my love for you refuses to dissipate.
So I wouldn't hate.
I would congratulate.
And continue to write and recite poems to perfect memories of the purest love I have ever known in my life.
I love everything about you.
Even down to the way you walk.
And your expressions.
If you ever need me,
If you ever wanna come find me,
I'll only be just a poem away...

Oxygen

You are my oxygen
I can't seem to breathe without you
The air I breathe seems incomplete without you in my vicinity
Every second without you seems like hopeless infinity
Suffocation seems imminent
I ask myself how long can my heart survive
Because it feels like I'm brain-dead
And without you I just can't seem to breathe
Like I said
You are my oxygen
I've been trying to locate my pulse
But I truly don;t believe it will return
Until I feel your touch
I can't even conceive to truly love another woman or another woman's love to receive
Becuase they would want the whole soul of me and I wouldn't even be able to offer them a piece of me
Please believe
Because the whole soul of me, after God, belongs to you
So I'm standing here somewhat soul-less without you
Shallowness of breath
I can feel within my lungs the constriction
Life without you is an obvious death conviction
Because like I said
You are my oxygen
So how can I even imagine breathing without you
Loving you is so much deeper than addiction
The way my heart, soul, spirit, mind and body feel for you
So much deeper than my inadequate words and their diction
The place in my heart for you no other woman can even begin to chart
It's like I can feel the raw wounds in the pit of my heart
Shredded from pain's sand-paper-like friction
Vessels, veins and tendons just hanging outside my chest ripped all the way apart
Without you I don't even wanna know what intimacy is anymore
When I lost you it's like every woman walked right out the door
And watched the tail-lights fade away in the distance
No other woman can even begin to fill the void i now feel
I just gotta be real
I miss you
My heart misses you
My heart cries for you
My body yearns for you
My heart dies for you
Along with my pride
It's like my soul has been cracked
And I'm all alone standing off to the side feeling abstract
Somewhat invisible to the rest of the world
Heart open and visible to no-one else but you girl
Hoping one day you'll help me breathe again
Because like I said
You are my oxygen...

Signed,
Loren

Random Heart-Speak: What is the Point?

If it's not about love what is really the point?
Because it's then and only then our souls and spirits one another can anoint
Me, with your virtue
You, if I take the time to search you
I can see something worthy of my love
Wait!
You deserve my love simply because you are
And because God made you
And you are somebody's rib
Maybe not mine
But through someone's dark clouds you will one day shine
I believe you would clear my sky up with no hesitation


*****
This piece will be available in its entirety in my forthcoming book, “HeartSpeak- Volume I”.
Stay tuned…
Love!

Lo ‘SpokenHeart’ Keys

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Why you

Why not you

Who are you

Is your heart true

Or is this drama

Are you spittin' like a llama

Causing a visit from cousin Karma

Do you feel the swift need to retreat because of returning heat

Emotions all in a blender because what's dished out always returns to the sender

It's funny because Karma is delivered every day

And unlike the postal service, there's no fee for same day delivery.

Just sayin'...


Lo Keys

Random Heart-Speak: Imagination

It's crazy to me how one could tell you about all the amazing attributes they possess

About how cunnilingaly skilled they are, and how much they've been 'blessed'

Or how they could put your heart in arrest mode, rock your world like Depeche Mode

Or how about this

Promised lifetime dedication and eternal moments of bliss sealed with a kiss

Which transform into 'Kiss my ass' when you let your guard down and let 'em hit it


*****
This piece will be available in its entirety in my forthcoming book, “HeartSpeak- Volume I”.
Stay tuned…
Love!

Lo ‘SpokenHeart’ Keys

Random Heart-Speak: Live On

We are living in perilous times where genocide is the new form of suicide

Because when you kill somebody for the sake of blatant disrespect you've really disrespected the victims mother, father, sister and brother

And ultimately yourself

For when the smoke clears you should be crying their same tears because we all bleed the same blood at the end of the day

So you've ultimately killed yourself because of the mental suicide of pride, and now where can you hide

Are you truly ready to die like you say in your daily street corner dissertation

Because they're comin'

Are you truly ready to die

Cause when the shells fly from the retaliation drive-by

There's no use in runnin'

Just take your stance like the 'g' you claim to be

You said you ready to die for yours right?

Now is the opportunity to get the famous rep a dead man never remains to see

You died for what you 'believe'

Leaving your mother and others that love you to grieve

Because you were too selfish to just let it ride

So now it's enemy-assisted suicide

Avoidable when you take the time to think about your seed you'll leave behind in need

Not just your money, but your inspiration

So your seed can look up to you and chase heart-felt dreams without hesitation

What is the complication?

Your baby needs you

Your lady needs her gentleman

Your mother needs her son

Your father needs his baby boy, even if he hasn't figured out how to tell you, but patient hope can change that too

Sometimes pain and anger and grief are too much for belief

And death to you seems like the only escape, leaving loved ones with unanswered questions

Emotionally raped

Your casket draped with tears

Maybe they'll be able to leave it open so your face can be touched for one last good-bye

Do words really need to be carried that far

Just for the sake of somebody knowing who you are

I was ready to die

Then somebody cared enough to present me with a perplexing inquiry

'When are you gonna be 'g' enough to just let it ride'

'They're just words right?'

Honor and respect

Are we supposed to hold code to them in a gangsta abode and act like we're gods?

It took almost my life to finally realize the facade

Those words have been twisted so it seems there is validity for unknowingly or knowingly rebelling against 4 simple words

Thou shalt not kill...

I keep reminding myself because strife and conflict make it easy to lose sight

So my prayer is that God grants me the grace to make it right

Because I love my brother

Do you love me?

It's the only way we'll be able to live on...


Lo Keys

Random Heart=Speak: Right Now Remedy

I see you are hurting and it bothers me

I know your whole story because I've been there the whole time

I'll release you if you allow me

From the mental confines of your dismantled mind

Broken apart from the unnatural disconnection between you mind and your heart

All the lies your eyes have been saying who could blame you

Love has left you feeling like it's a mystery because all through your history you've seen nothing but hurt and shame for it's name sake

Deeper than failed romance where you've taken countless chances with your heart

New hope constantly shattered like glass against concrete and brick



*****
This piece will be available in its entirety in my forthcoming book, “HeartSpeak- Volume I”.
Stay tuned…
Love!

Lo ‘SpokenHeart’ Keys

Random Heart-Speak: Stuck

I liken you to the North Star, guiding my soul to depths untold
Unfolding like a portrait accented with a frame of platinum I long to behold in the shadows like a weak man wishing he could be strong
Clutching my chest at the thought of just ingesting your fragrance
Sweet tangerines dipped in jasmine
Not for my consumption
Not with the assumption I can taste of your sacred fruit unless you allow me to venture into the depths of your sacred garden
Desiring a pardon from the mental hell that swells to the highest degree of Fahrenheit



*****
This piece will be available in its entirety in my forthcoming book, “HeartSpeak- Volume I”.
Stay tuned…
Love!

Lo ‘SpokenHeart’ Keys

Random Heart-Speak: Conversation

Can we talk
Can we go for a long walk
Can I take your hand as we stroll along the sand
Along the way we can catch the sun as he hides himself underneath the horizon
And let the passion of our words consume us under the subtle illumination of the gently rising moon
And listen to the celebration of the stars as music
As they gather to commemorate this Edenic moment of God's choosing
There are things I want to say to you that I have told no other woman
Because I never thought about them till I laid my eyes on you
It's like I can see the words forming in the air


*****
This piece will be available in its entirety in my forthcoming book, “HeartSpeak- Volume I”.
Stay tuned…
Love!

Lo ‘SpokenHeart’ Keys

Random Heart-Speak: Touch

I see you sister

My heart sees and feels you

Walking around in a pain-induced hypnosis

Hypnotized by scandalous lies into believing

Pain, hurt, deception then rejection is all you'll ever be receiving from those who call themselves men

Eyes glazed

Spiritually dazed

Slowly moving to a state of psychosis

From tainted love being heaped on you in huge doses

I'm praying for you

*****
This piece will be available in its entirety in my forthcoming book, “HeartSpeak- Volume I”.
Stay tuned…
Love!

Lo ‘SpokenHeart’ Keys

Random Heart-Speak: Just Some Thoughts

Always blessed
Sometimes perplexed
Many times vexed
Overall, never pressed
Consider myself one of the best
Humility passes tests
Got on my faith vest
Satan bombards with his darts
Express my agony through my art
Heal the world with my art
And heal myself along the way
Sometimes I pray
Sometimes I just say 'Lord help me'
Other times I just hang my head and say 'Sorry'
Sometimes I feel sorry
Most times I feel strong and weak simultaneously
The struggle between the nigga and the gentleman is so intense
I know even God has to sit there in suspense
I'm complex, yet simple
A concrete soldier balanced by a heart that's gentle
But a mind that works too hard sometimes to keep it safely at bay
From all the games the heartless wanna play
Each day that I live
I strive to forgive
Sometimes I wonder what I'm giving for
Sometimes I don't feel like giving more
Damn
Sometimes I even wonder what I'm even still living for
Human people do that
Real people do that
Somebody may even have the nerve to judge these words
And even question my mental faculty
Or even write me off as a damaged casualty of the pain of life
Maybe you should try starting over after 8 years of having a wife
Quitting marriage cold turkey and getting thrown back into the single life?
How about drawbacks from flashbacks
Constantly fighting the inward desire to retire and withdraw into a spiritual solitude
But renewing your mind daily to change that attitude
Love is my life
God is my life
I know I can't live without God
And I can't live without love
And love better get UN-used to living without me
Well MY love that is
Whoever she is
Wherever she is
Just saying before you make snap judgments, walk a mile in my shoes
Do you think you could even make it a block down my road?
Just askin'...

Lo Keys