Love Letters: Nobody was wrong...

Pointing fingers
Three point back
It's fact
Love left the building a long time ago
At least love like we knew it once upon a time
Romeo is dissing Juliet
Juliet is dissing Romeo
We both know
That we both have to go
And parting is never sweet
Nothing but sorrow
At least in that bitter-sweet moment
And all we can both do is pick up the shredded fragments of our hearts
Doubled over in agony from the slinging darts
Hurtful words exchanged
Hearts now rearranged
Or rather
Compartmentalized
Soul ties
Looking for scissors
But some chords are so tough to sever
Broken promises equal two broken hearts to match
Twenty-two is the catch
Souls feel snatched
Seemingly never to be found again
Not only did I lose my lover
I lost my closest friend
How the hell can I ever open up again
Tomorrow knows better than now
And if I paid close attention
Yesterday was already telling the story
But some stories always put us to sleep
Leaving you to wake up
Feeling completely incomplete
Smiles hiding in the shadows of tears
Strong assurance replaced with weakening fears
Because starting over is not where either one of us want to be
After being your slave I want no parts of being free
For you've branded what occupies where my right hand clutches just below my left breast
Leaving a piece of me with you like you cut off my foot
Can't you see me limping
How could you
I left you limping too
Both sides of the argument are valid and true

At least from Perspective's standpoint

Simply put

Nobody was wrong

We were simply wrong for each other

And I believe we both still have so much love to give...

*SpokenHeart

Random WordPlay: Just me...

Many have tried
Many have lied
Many have laid aside pride
All for a chance to get next to you

With hopes of being in your vicinity on the regular

Secular desires
Four flat tires
Going nowhere
Evil stare
'Don't touch my hair!'
'I don't know you like that!'

Lips shoot
Flossing loot
In pursuit
Unfortunately you already know it's the panties before your heart
And the usual finish to the race leaves you broken
38 HOT
Gun of bitterness still smoking
Poppin off shots at the innocent bystander who just simply says hello
What will it take to empty your clip before you point your gun at me

Let me guess

Honesty
Truth
Respect
Spirituality in totality
And not just for convenience of conversation

What about a smile and direct contact with your eyes
Not roaming your body wondering what the prize is like
Not trying to feed my appetite
That has nothing to do with food

Way to the left of rude
A sincere dude
Who gives you his government without being prompted
And you have to hear somebody else call him by the name he prefers

No secrets
No surprises
No omissions
No bullshit

Just me

Giving you the freedom to choose... Me

And not my representative


Am I on the right path to you?


SpokenHeart

Random Heart-Speak: Let me know,,,

Do you understand who I am?
Strong, positive., eloquent black man
Paying close attention to my summer years
As the sands of my hour glass have produced grays on my chin
Not settling down in my easy chair watching the seasons change
Not just admiring the painted portraits I see along the way
But painting my own
Not scared of being alone
Not waiting by the phone
Setting my own tone
While enjoying the subtle harmonies of life
Not picking any bones
Not caught up in the Love Jones
I don't play any trombones
But my sax game is on point
Can you appreciate my melody?
Scored with the pen of my sin
The blood of my redemption
And the cleansing of my soul
Washed by the storms of life
Queen Mother still has me in check
Every word she utters commands my deepest respect
And I adore how she lets me live
And how she forgives
When this knuckle-head Prince stops feeling himself
Enabling me to cash in on my wealth
By remembering to honor the first commandment with promise
Keeping me humble and honest
How much do you know now?
How much more do you wanna know?
Let me know
The sooner the better...

SpokenHeart

More than...

The more I think about you, the more I feel you
The more I feel you, the more I pray for you
The more you need me to wait, the more I will wait for you
Heart focused on what tomorrow holds
Not concerned with enhancing the flesh but more my soul
Immortality is the goal
Mortality is the way, the truth and the life
Morality is a lifestyle when I am blessed with my wife
The need to be loved fulfilled with a vow and a kiss
Honeymoon bliss
Making sure we do everything in our power to keep the 'honey' in the moon
Keeping each other in check so the lusts of the flesh will not consume
Understanding is the path
You do the math
The more we relate the more we can create
The more we hope the more we can cope
More than conquerors
More than lovers
More than friends
More than companions
Together we are just simply more than whatever...

SpokenHeart

Beautiful

In the midst of all the ugliness in our lives and in this world we found something beautiful together.
Something so beautiful words can't ever begin to describe it in totality.
For that, I can only say thank you for giving me a chance.
In my eyes you can never be replaced.
I don't wanna replace you.
Anyone else I would honestly be settling for.
I am not sad overall.
I just miss you.
I miss loving you freely with reciprocity.
I truly wanna see you happy.
The selfish part of me wants you to wait for me, but I dropped the ball.
I know for a fact God opened the heavens and personally placed you right before me.
I will forever praise His name for that.
The fact is the real man in me now recognizes I blew my chance at having you.
I mishandled my life in such a way that I ultimately ended up mishandling you.
I will never make that mistake again for two reasons.
One, If you ever took me back, I would not lose you twice.
Two, I don't want to open up to anyone else like that again.
I love you to pieces.
I love you beyond love itself.
I pray for you always.
I pray God moves on your behalf swiftly.
I pray He heals your heart.
I pray He heals mine along the way.
I am utterly devoted to you.
If I can't have you, I will write and recite poems to the memories I have of you.
For those memories are more perfect to me than any other woman could ever measure up to.
I don't wanna give my heart to somebody else because i promised my heart to you.
If you ever choose to receive my love again, it's already yours to redeem.
I'm just happy I could commit my heart to you with all the love I have to give.
I am learning I can still be happy and be alone.
Because if I chose somebody else, they would be ultimately alone as my heart is wherever you are.
If you choose to move on completely the only thing I could do is smile after i weep.
Because all I wanna see is your happiness.
Because my love for you refuses to dissipate.
So I wouldn't hate.
I would congratulate.
And continue to write and recite poems to perfect memories of the purest love I have ever known in my life.
I love everything about you.
Even down to the way you walk.
And your expressions.
If you ever need me,
If you ever wanna come find me,
I'll only be just a poem away...

Oxygen

You are my oxygen
I can't seem to breathe without you
The air I breathe seems incomplete without you in my vicinity
Every second without you seems like hopeless infinity
Suffocation seems imminent
I ask myself how long can my heart survive
Because it feels like I'm brain-dead
And without you I just can't seem to breathe
Like I said
You are my oxygen
I've been trying to locate my pulse
But I truly don;t believe it will return
Until I feel your touch
I can't even conceive to truly love another woman or another woman's love to receive
Becuase they would want the whole soul of me and I wouldn't even be able to offer them a piece of me
Please believe
Because the whole soul of me, after God, belongs to you
So I'm standing here somewhat soul-less without you
Shallowness of breath
I can feel within my lungs the constriction
Life without you is an obvious death conviction
Because like I said
You are my oxygen
So how can I even imagine breathing without you
Loving you is so much deeper than addiction
The way my heart, soul, spirit, mind and body feel for you
So much deeper than my inadequate words and their diction
The place in my heart for you no other woman can even begin to chart
It's like I can feel the raw wounds in the pit of my heart
Shredded from pain's sand-paper-like friction
Vessels, veins and tendons just hanging outside my chest ripped all the way apart
Without you I don't even wanna know what intimacy is anymore
When I lost you it's like every woman walked right out the door
And watched the tail-lights fade away in the distance
No other woman can even begin to fill the void i now feel
I just gotta be real
I miss you
My heart misses you
My heart cries for you
My body yearns for you
My heart dies for you
Along with my pride
It's like my soul has been cracked
And I'm all alone standing off to the side feeling abstract
Somewhat invisible to the rest of the world
Heart open and visible to no-one else but you girl
Hoping one day you'll help me breathe again
Because like I said
You are my oxygen...

Signed,
Loren

Random Heart-Speak: What is the Point?

If it's not about love what is really the point?
Because it's then and only then our souls and spirits one another can anoint
Me, with your virtue
You, if I take the time to search you
I can see something worthy of my love
Wait!
You deserve my love simply because you are
And because God made you
And you are somebody's rib
Maybe not mine
But through someone's dark clouds you will one day shine
I believe you would clear my sky up with no hesitation


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This piece will be available in its entirety in my forthcoming book, “HeartSpeak- Volume I”.
Stay tuned…
Love!

Lo ‘SpokenHeart’ Keys